Temptation and Intervention

 Last Friday night we had the men's night at Zephan's house.  It was just three of us.  Zephan, Taylor, and me.  I wasn't planning on staying any time at all.  But I couldn't resist the converstaion with Katie and Silas, and Zeph offered me a Modelo, which was so smooth.  

We had a nice conversation.  Much more discussion about faith and religion than usual.  It was like it was meant to be for me.  

Earlier that week Susie and I were at a disconnect.  I was feeling a lot of self doubt on Monday and Tuesday, then even lower on Wednesday.  And a real disconnect from Susie.  Then Thursday and Friday was a bit better.  Saturday I was feeling good while I worked.  When I came home I felt Susie was distancing from me.  Same thing Sunday morning but then she seemed to be stabilized during church and the afternoon was good.  

Anyway, during those tough few days I found out I would be going to the math training with Sarah Smith on Monday and Tuesday.  I popped into her room after school and asked if she wanted to have lunch since we would be doing the training together.  Well, that got me to wondering what it would be like to pursue an affair with her.  And I started to flesh out how it could happened at our lunch.  How our conversation over lunch could be such a connection that it would lead to an affair.  And then I thought about how this is not something I want to share with my guy friends because they would discourage me from doing it. 

Then a thought occured to me that I need to show Sarah the love of Christ.  That she is actually more like my sister than like a secret lover.  That changed my perspective on it all.  

Then I got this info from Allen that his piano teacher wants me to do some work.  It turns out the best time for the work is going to be during my lunch breaks on Monday and Tuesday.  Thanks for coming through God, and intervening once I listened to the still quiet voice inside.  

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