Tough Days
It's been some tough days Not a healthy person. I started off my meetings with Rick with so much enthusiasm, with hope that my life would turn around, he helped for a while but I'm back where I started, we met for the last time for a while today, feels like he's just tired of me, tired of dealing with my pessimism a lack of Hope, the lack of movement in our marriage and he sees who I am, I'm really not much of a guy, just someone kind of drifting through, he finally saw it about me after spending some time with me, I guess my first impression was good but after a while the real me came through, he recommended a counselor to me so I will contact him and hopefully meet, I think I just want Rick down. I don't think I really care to be with Susie or not, I really don't think it bothers me to not be with her, I do miss the sex, but I don't know how this feeling of love for her that was a longing for the person that she is, which is a pretty harsh thing to say ...