Life Log - Kyle William Nix, February 12, 1976

 I attended Mosaic once again and it was difficult, once again.   I want to attend New City Church, but the more I think about going there I am discouraged and not sure I want to go there either.   It seems I can't escape the presence and reminders of Susie.  Maybe for the next few months the outdoors should be my sanctuary.  Just maybe that is what I should do.  Go to church with Mark on Saturdays, occasionally, and try to see God in the outdoors.  That actually gives me the most peace and comfort.   Lately when I think about the life that Susie is living and the encounters that I'm missing out with her and my children it literally makes me queasy to my stomach.  My body is trying to tell me something that I don't quite understand.  But I do know something is bothering me.   It was 23 years of marriage, plus the three years prior to that of being on again and off again.  So it has been a long, long, long ti...

Feb. 1, 2025 Hi, everyone! I want to thank all who have been supporting me over the past few weeks! What a gift you all have been! It makes this process so much more bearable. Here's a quick timeline of what has happened so far: 1/7: Initial visit with primary care doctor. Noticed lump and some pain in right testicle. 1/9: Ultrasound showed a tumor in my right testicle 1/21-22: Urologist ordered bloodwork and CT scan which confrimed cancer has spread to abdominal lymph nodes. 1/28: Fertility preservation 1/30: orchiectomy to remove the cancerous testicle. Next Steps: 2/??: Biopsy results will identify details needed to help oncology create a chemo regiment. Biopsy results will also allow me to schedule a pulminary exam and port insertion, both required before chemo. 2/13: Post-Op visit with urology 2/18: Oncology consultation. Chemo will likely start before March. Again, I am so blessed to have such an amazing support system! Thank you all for your encouragement! I plan to add more...