May 10th journal entry, Contemplating Future Career

 I am experiencing tightness in my neck tonight and I'm not sure why.  

I have been at a training for the last two school days and am returning to the classroom tomorrow.  I have learned a lot from the training but I also know that it will still be going back to the day in day out grind of being in the classroom.  

But, just 13 1/2 more days.  That's not much at all.  Get through this week and it will be getting close to the single digits.  After tomorrow, a bakers dozen.  

So, that does relieve some stress.  

Maybe the stress if coming from the handyman work I have been doing.  Especially the rush job that I did the last two days over my lunch break.  I figure I need to alot a good hour and a half for a swamp cooler set up.  Then if anything goes wrong I need to just do my usual $30 per hour rate.  All looked well, but I may need to go back by on Saturday.  And, speaking of, I will need to play and research for the job this Saturday.  Painting cabinets.  Possibly mixing and pouring concrete for a fence gate, fixing screen doors and entrance doors.  This is a huge learning curve.  Hopefully this goes well.  If not, I'll have to adjust what I charge the guy and tell him up front what I can and can't do.  That should take off some of the stress.  

Men's breakfast tomorrow.  I need to listen to the chapter tonight.  The Lord, The Lord.  Will enjoy my water and pancake tomorrow.  

Two more days of table tennis and then we're done.  Maybe set up a tournament.  ... It's just one thing after another this spring.  I need to get a little prize for the winner of the tournament.  Maybe a soda and chips of their choice on Friday.  

Scripture verse:

My soul thirsts for God, the living God.  Where can I enter and see the face of God.  

Deep calls to deep in the torrents and the waves and breakers surround me.  


Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.  Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.  Blessed are those who hunder and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied. BLessed are the merciful, for they shall recieve mercy.  Blessed pure in heart, for they shall see God.  Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be call sons of God.  

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