The Season After Christmas

It is Thursday evening before a nice coming weekend of skiing and watching football.  ... Hoping that we all come home healthy and walking strong on both of our legs and using both of our arms and our necks.  
Skiing is fun but it does make me nervous.  
Football is fun but that make me nervous in another way.  The Rams play the 49ers this Sunday.  I'm confident they will win but I know I will be nervous watching my favorite team play.  
Anyway, the season after Christmas is delightful with birthdays, football playoffs, valentines day, and skiing.  It is funny how long for Christmas all year long and then am a bit depressed after the holidays, but then I'm cheerful shortly after because this is a nice time of the year too.  

How are things going with Susie?  She seems more and more open to talking about things that are slightly more personal.  Like we talked a little bit about going down to Branson early and she wasn't so sure about it.  She was grieving over the fact that it is a hassle to get the girls into a different house for just one night.  I wasn't sure what she was feeling.  Was she just grieving or was she saying that she didn't want to stay at the Kelley's farm house.  But in general I feel like the interactions between us have been slightly more pleasant.  Valentine's Day is coming.  I don't imagine we'll be together but it is possible.  It would be a surprise.  I want to get her a little something, maybe just a card and a gift card to Starbucks or to Massage Envy.  I want to get the kids something from Sees Candy though.  That's been my plan for several months now.  I want to be attentive to how I can help Susie get ready for Valentine's Day.  I got a grievances journal for Susie and I to share with each other.  Maybe I can get that for her for Valentine's Day, or maybe I'll give it to her next Monday when she is off of work... Yeah, I think then.  

Tonight I have been thinking about Uncle Dave and Aunt Norma.  They are actually my only Aunt and Uncle.  I can't believed I never thought about that before but they are the closest blood relative to my parents which is really something.  I want to call them and tell them how much they mean to me.  I want to show them that I desire their love and desire to feel like I am special to them.  I want them to feel how special they are to me.  What a better time to do this than at Valentine's Day.  I want to get Susie those little caramels from Ace for Valentines Day to show her that I know what she likes.  I want to encourage Mike to do something special for Melissa.  

I need to reflect on some of my memories from when I was younger.  


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