The Holidays are Coming

 This will be the 2nd year post marriage to go through the holidays.  The last few years while we were married and last Christmas was probably the worst.  I think this year will be easier to manage the emotions.  Though I know there will be one way on another that she will do to cause me to get bothered.  

This school year has been a mixed bag, bi-polar to be more accurate.  The math strats class is the pits.  It is mainly Crucito and a small handful of kids.  It is also my inability to dedicate the time needed to meet the big diversity of learning needs.  So, I'll just suffer through and make incremental improvements.  It's kinda slowly working.  But the feeling of disrespect and disregard gets really old.  But, my 6th grade classes are decent.  


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