Summer Break 2023

 Sunday, June 11

Today is Simon's 13th birthday.  

Got back from Missouri last night.  We were there from May 28 to June 10.  

My dad needs mental health.  I need to talk to Dana about this.  And to see if the VA provides telehealth.  

I spend a good week with Simon.  He originally didn't plan to go but I'm glad he did.  So glad.  It was some good time together.  

Seeing MoVal friends was very encouraging.  Seeing Susie when I returned was very deflating.  He response to me being home was extremely indifferent.  

Going to Jo Boaler training tomorrow, which should be excellent.  


Thursday, June 23

Came home after the math training and wasn't acknowledged by Susie. It hurts to not matter.  Maybe I treat others like that.  Or treat her like that.  I don't know.  

I'm staying busy and exercising, so it helps, but I feel incredibly empty.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to start my routine of praying for the family and I'm going to pray long and hard... And even if we separate I'm still going to pray for Susie.  


Friday, June 24

Better day for me.  I came in after picking up Mihika from camp and said hi to Susie and Simon.  She said hi back.  She asked me how the appointment for my knee went.  I asked her what she decided to do about her phone.  She said the speaker is dirty and that they cleaned it at the Apple store but now the speakers aren't working again.  She doesn't know what she's going to decide to do.  



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