Eric not visiting over Thanksgiving and observations of Susie

 Two things came up over the weekend that may be good to discuss when we meet with Scott.  

We probably won't meet for several more weeks because Susie wants to meet with Scott a few more times before we meet as a couple.  That's actually fine by me.  I have plenty of room to continue to grow and areas to practice new ways of thinking and communicating.  

Eric told me last week he would like to visit.  I asked susie if he could stay with us and she said no.  I asked Susie if he could stay at the Kelley's while they're out of town and she said no.  I asked if he could stay with Jeff Trujillo and she said that she had already given her answer but it seems like we are going to do what we are going to do.  Eric said he will not be coming.  The night before he made his decision I told Susie that I was going to first pray about it, but that I will probably going to tell Eric to not come.  BECAUSE, I have often put my family over our relationship and I don't want to do that this time.  That was last night.  Today I told Susie and if Eric did visit I would spend Tuesday with him since susie will be at work.  She wrote back and reminded me that she isn't working Tuesday but Monday and that she's not surprised that I forgot about all of that.  I just responded that it is hard to keep track of everything we have going on.  

Another observation came Sunday night while we were watching The Chosen.  I was confused by the storyline.  I was also getting the characters story confused as to what had happened to the mad who was lowered through the roof, how he became paralized.  She was sharp toward Anna and me when explaining the story.  I was disregulated, just a bit by her frustration over that.  I wonder if I should be quicker to understand these things or what is really going on here. 

Just a few things to be kindly curious about.  

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