Cutting Down Christmas Tree

 We all drove to the Jemez today.  Simon had an emotional breakdown over he and Elijah sharing the bedroom and was crying when we left.  We stopped at Circle K and got drinks which made the drive a lot more fun.  Everyone else was in a good mood and I even think Susie and I were enjoying being together, or at least I didn't feel like I was annoying her.  We drove through the Gilman tunnels and continued on a bumpy rock road for a mile or two.  There was a serious lack of trees but we eventually found one after looking around and a stop or two along the way.  

I was pleasantly surprised by the positive demeanor Susie was showing toward me.  Especially after I told her the previous night about how it was hurtful that we couldn't have a simple converstaion over the carpool plans she had made for the kids on Tuesday morning.  I guess we were both able to get over it so that was a good sign.  However there were a few instances that I once again showed my aloofness.  As I was packing the van I said to Susie in a questioning manner that we have one more service on Sunday.  Her response has just a bit of disappointment in it when she reminded me that we are inside and asked if I remembered when Pastor Adam announceed that we could put away our lawn chairs for the winter.  Not a big deal but a small reminded to Susie that I am slow to process and remember happenings going on in our lives.  

I'm meeting with Scott next Tuesday and Susie is meeing with Scott next Monday.  Maybe just another could of weeks or a month it will finally be time for the two of us to meet with Scott.  These meetings are getting pretty expensive but it's an investment we need to make.  


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